I said that I love (eternal schemes),
I cling to my past (like childish dreams)
I promised to stay (and dwell my grief)
I went far away.

I see blood spilled 'neath my feet,
Lead me through wastelands of deceit,
Rest your head now, don't you cry,
Don't ever ask the reason why

Something seems to be dead here
Undergo deconstruction
The symmetry of fear
Strange lack of seduction
My sister remember

Sister...
Sister...
Sister...

Sister September

An inner war is to come
Still he doesn't want to succumb
An ineffable loss of trust
One story
Turning into diamond dust

Something seems to be dead here
Undergo deconstruction
The symmetry of fear
Strange lack of seduction
My sister remember

It's obviously beyond his power
All certainties move towards their end
One question
And so many answers
Where's the crown he once transcend?

Sister September
Where are the dream's you've stuck in me?
Sister remember
I shall never, never forget the name of your devotee

A moment of beauty
Still it remains only a memory
A stunning artifact of the past
The one, the true, the last

Do I have to die under this autumnal sun?
Did I have to trust you?
Truly and madly and blindly
And what did I get in return?

Sister...
Sister...
Sister...
Sister September

Cross my heart and hope to die within my sleep
As I believe I'm being stalked inside a dream
I start to run, my legs are numb, I beg you please
My blood dries out, my body's cold, the rivers freeze
The rivers freeze

Helplessly I lie in wait for what may appear before me
And desperately I seek of thee; spare my soul, deceiver

Steal my heart
Then take the rest of me
Free my mind
Let me float away
On this feeling
Even though this insanity
Seems to me reality
Take my final thoughts away
Leave me be on my deathbed

Fade away
My dying day
The fever takes control
Deceiver takes my soul
Light the sky
This dying night
The flaming torch will burn
The path of no return

I seek revenge as I escape the maze within
I need the key to turn the lock that holds me back
Then I am free, fast asleep
I walk in dreams, firesoul hang on to me
I'll make you scream
I'll make you scream

Helplessly I lie in wait for what may appear before me
And desperately I seek of thee; spare my soul, deceiver

Falling into you
Dreaming
Trying to find you there but
Even though this sanity
Seems to me reality
Take my final thoughts away
Leave me be on my deathbed

Fade away
My dying day
The fever takes control
Deceiver takes my soul
Light the sky
This dying night
The flaming torch will burn
The path of no return

Firesoul

In my sleep I fall in deep
Into the sea of dark desire
Haunting me, stalking me
Helplessly, I'm still dreaming

In my sleep I fall in deeper down
Into the sea of dark desire
Haunting me, stalking me
I'm helpless
Watching me
In my sleep stilll dreaming

Cross my heart and hope to die within my sleep
As I believe I'm being stalked inside a dream
I start to run, my legs are numb, I beg you please
My blood dries out, my body's cold
The river's frozen

Once a day falling on the trail walking blind
trade nothing descretion in low,
It's hard to wait taking yourself in honor
I should know how low I can go

Before I go high I get very down,
and I'll be going after it again and again

You know I can't go the other way
without being trashed, lost and strungout,
When together try something going back to the question
what's to coming out?

Before I go high I get very down,
and I'll be going after it again and again

Maybe I should've (could've) trashed my life
but for that I'm gonna turn to you.
And the trashed people askin' my head until I sweat
Now tell me what the fuck to do!

One day I getting to the point where I ain't gonna do,
Nothing but trying to beat strungout on you
You let me drown way deep down below
For the fleeting past to let go
Until the end I raise and batter around
looking at my own reflection
forever I shall kiss you goodbye
to kill my soul addiction

Before I go high I hit the ground,
Then you know me for i get very down
Up to the next you tell me "fucking whore"
And i'll be going after it, before I go!

[Chorus Part 1:]
Crawl in me
Inside my veins you're burning still
Grow in me
But my heart you're dead for real

Get inside my house of grief
Here's where I want you to be
Decaying slow a frantic crumble
Towards the end of your dreams

[Chorus Part 2 (2x):]
The last time
Those years were all in vain
Come save my soul

Craving 'till your last breath
But still demanding respect
Just like a doll I see you falter
Shattering fragments of guilt
But I'm so tired of your blathering
Of your constant lies of your sickness
Let me close the door on your memory
And watch you burn inside my prison

[Chorus Part 1 and 2]

Feeble legs are fast to crumble
In a constant reverence
Save your prayers for tomorrow
'Cause today drown with me

Used to be my Panic Room
The other side of me
Where I slept and woke by turns
And nothing seemed real

I was feeding on your life
Peering through the hole
And it scared me out
Someday
You would knock on my door

Sweet shelter of mine
I'm freezing without
Sweet shelter of mine
I'm dying without

Cover up my twisted thoughts
Shattered all around
Muffled sounds
Recurring dreams
Melatonin smile

Used to be my 302
The other side of light
Trap of my own
That helped me deal
With what I lost inside

Sweet shelter of mine
I'm freezing without
Sweet shelter of mine
I'm dying without
Sweet shelter of mine

***

I've tried to make self-portraits before
But they always turn out so contrived
I've spent too much time
Correcting light and shade
Hiding wrinkles
Blurring scars